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2025-07-06

Approx. 11:08PM


Dear Diary,

I became a cat person before I can realize it. I used to love dogs, but now I see them as slobbery highly energetic beings that do not know the concept of personal space. Don't get me wrong, I won't trade them for the world. However, I much rather not interact with them. Like, at all. It's like having or meeting kids on a sugar rush and choosing between one or someone else. I'd rather save them than save some rando I equally have no knowledge of.

Kids are innocent and childish and immature. I guess I'm just jealous of them. They can be innocent but when I am, people would think I'm ignorant instead. Or when I want candy. People allow kids to eat candy. But when I do it, I "don't have self-control and discipline" or something. When I like childish things like games or characters or ships or cartoons or concepts and ideas or teddy bears, stuffed toys, toys in general--people judge me! Ugh. Okay, maybe I'm just jealous.

I see the light in my dog's eyes--the undeniable trust and unconditional love and hope and admiration. If I were to choose between myself or my dog--even though I hate her so very much, I'd toss my life away to protect them. And that goes to kids as well.

Just...

Don't expect me to love being with them.


Yours sincerely,

Sunder